| seasons!! my fav s0ng too! hehe! |
[27 Jun 2002|07:26pm] |
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| s0metimes y0u g0tta f0rgive and f0rget ;x |
[27 Jun 2002|04:15pm] |
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yeah so my boyfriend totally backstabbed me. But i love him so much im just going to forgive and forget.
i guess thats what you do when your in love... i love you richard. forever!
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[19 Jun 2002|05:33pm] |
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finch - letters to you |
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cant you see
that i wanna be
there with open arms
its empty tonight
im all alone
get me through this one
do you notice?
im g0ne...
where do you run to..
so far away...
i want you to know that
i miss you
I MISS YOU SO!
i want you to know that...
i miss you!
i miss youuuu soooo! </3>sigh< i miss my b0yfriend so much! he's at w0rk! ;x w/ s0me chick i d0nt like cuz she likes to talk ab0ut my pr0blems to him! f*ck her! grrr... i just want to TRUST PEOPLE!!!! i hate myself sometimes... i just wanna be the best girlfriend i can be... richard is everything to me. and right now the only person that is truely real to me. even tho sometimes he screws up and does stuff that i dont really like .... i just want everything to be perfect!! Im so sad :[ i feel like a terrible controlling bitch girlfriend!! i love you richard! despite my stupid self! i will always love you! <333333333
-Sunshine<3
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| test |
[19 Jun 2002|05:30pm] |
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just a test
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| *im walkin away - from the troubles in my life* |
[19 Jun 2002|03:11pm] |
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Hey everyone... i just got home from work... kinda. I chilled w/ one of my old best friends from way back when i was four*teen - and it was great b/c i really missed her and i grew up from when we were "young" so i hope me and her become better friends. I miss kat too :[ i miss all my old best friends and i just want to turn back time and hold on to them really tight.. b/c i miss them so much. the old times were so much better than now... i really dont think any of my friends really truly care anymore. its like elemetry school - you are just starting to find friends... middle school - when you have and cherish BEST FRIENDS and then high school - you dont really have best friends. and then college- you just hang out.. i dunno - i just want to turn back time..i wish i could move away from here - i wanna move to columbia or some other state sometimes... ugh! :[ if you have any advice about friends or anything please *leave a n0te* or email me.. SunshineBabeAF@aol.com is my new email :o) i still have abercrombie luv9 and crawlingchicklp if you wanna still email me there. it doesn't matter but i really need some feedback. m0nday i finally got paid *yay* and me and richie <33 went shoppin... i got A LOT of cds... ummm..... i g0t avril lavigne, 3rd srike, flaw, and eminem... papa roach.. so im happy and content that i have my MUSIC!! i got some shorts and a shirt from american eagle too... and after all that i only have 20 bucks left :[ outta.... 160 cuz i had to pay some bills $$ too! ;x which sucks! well i better go!!
-Sunshine<3
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| *im walkin away - from the troubles in my life* |
[19 Jun 2002|03:01pm] |
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Hey everyone... i just got home from work... kinda. I chilled w/ one of my old best friends from way back when i was four*teen - and it was great b/c i really missed her and i grew up from when we were "young" so i hope me and her become better friends. I miss kat too :[ i miss all my old best friends and i just want to turn back time and hold on to them really tight.. b/c i miss them so much. the old times were so much better than now... i really dont think any of my friends really truly care anymore. its like elemetry school - you are just starting to find friends... middle school - when you have and cherish BEST FRIENDS and then high school - you dont really have best friends. and then college- you just hang out.. i dunno - i just want to turn back time..i wish i could move away from here - i wanna move to columbia or some other state sometimes... ugh! :[ if you have any advice about friends or anything please *leave a n0te* or email me.. SunshineBabeAF@aol.com is my new email :o) i still have abercrombie luv9 and crawlingchicklp if you wanna still email me there. it doesn't matter but i really need some feedback. m0nday i finally got paid *yay* and me and richie <33 went shoppin... i got A LOT of cds... ummm..... i g0t avril lavigne, 3rd srike, flaw, and eminem... papa roach.. so im happy and content that i have my MUSIC!! i got some shorts and a shirt from american eagle too... and after all that i only have 20 bucks left :[ outta.... 160 cuz i had to pay some bills $$ too! ;x which sucks! well i better go!!
-Sunshine<3
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| Lie to me |
[13 May 2002|05:51pm] |
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Well i havn't written in here in so long. I have my car now, so i dont really get online much anymore. I just dont have alot of time on my hands, which is a good thing. My boyfriend lied to me... i can't believe him. but he did and i dunno... i dont want to lose him agian, i hate this. I hope he doesnt lie anymore, cuz he should know he could lose me over this. I dont take sh*t.. espically stupid lies. Well im gonna go run now!!! :'( bye
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| Crusin' |
[02 May 2002|08:50pm] |
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Flaw - out of wack |
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IM so happy! i got my driver's license. I was like crusin today w/ christina and helena and it was so fun! i was goin wild tho, i scared myself. I had the music up and crusin on the way home... i mean it was so relaxed, no parents. and sat. is going to be a full day of driving, going job hunting w/ christina, then to Richards..... and then we'll probably cruise, go to the mall, and then im going to alyssa's for a cool party! wowness. things are finally starting to be better. I love it! I love life!! :o)
*ChERyL-BuG*
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[27 Apr 2002|03:45pm] |
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Course of Nature - Caught in the sun |
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FRIST OF ALL I LOVE AND MISS YOU RICHARD!!!! *Sniffle*
man.. Everything is screwed up... i mean... like... Trisha totally betrayed me... so screw her. I will find new friends, better friends. I can't take it. I hate it... FACE IT... in high school you RARELY have best friends, and 9 times out of 10 they will betray you, so watch who your friends are. and play your cards wisely...
Betrayed
You left me here for dead
Betrayed
By the voices in my head
Betrayed
Left me out in the rain
Betrayed
Nothing left but pain
see thru - staind
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| y0u are my BeSt Friend! |
[21 Apr 2002|04:09pm] |
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juliana theory - you always say goodnight |
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"My best friend"
I am all left out,
but i dont care,
as long as im w/ you,
as long as your here.
because no one else matters,
when it comes to me and you,
they can do what they want without me,
theres nothing else i want to do.
you are the one i am living for,
you are the one who'll always be there,
i believe they've already left me,
and you are the one who cares.
you are the BEST friend,
the only one by my side,
i want you to be with me,
for the rest of my life.
<3 I love you Richard <3
Ps. i am cranky cuz i just got done w/ my term paper that is hella long and my head is killin me!!!! goodnight
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| it turned out to be an 0kay day! |
[20 Apr 2002|10:27pm] |
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Saliva - after me (yesss again!!!!) |
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MAN - i am tired. i woke up, took a shower, went to the movies w/ richie <33 we went to the libaray so i could do my research paper... went to pick up my class ring cuz it was in, its beautiful man! we came back, took a walk, got bit by something, and its HUGE and swollen, watched a movie and then i took him home :) he's gonna be gone for 4 days in lousiana for his bro's wedding, i will miss him!! i heard my mom b*tch at me alot at the libaray and this morning but it turned out to be an okay day.
ps. *the whole world is after me*
I cant help who i am, dont try and change me ;x
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| Hopefully the stress will go away |
[20 Apr 2002|09:42am] |
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Saliva - The world is after me |
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Yesterday we lost our game. Our last game of the season and the one we wanted the most. I cried all night long. We went into overtime 1 and 1 and our defense totally watched their goal go in. I wish i had been in at the time, or i dont think that would have happened. I guess thats easy for me to say, but i sure as hell wouldnt have watched it go in. And me and Richard had a big fight so i was crying about that too. I sure hope all this stress with go away soon. I mean my rough draft of my term paper is due Monday (but i have a journalism convintion) so i am turning it in Tuesday, and then our final is due the 29th, so maybe after all that is over, i can be the nice happy Cheryl agian. Another stressful thing - I found out that my damn permit is EXPRIED. and i might have to take the lil test thing agian! it expired last month... i cant believe that. it expries in a year. I am gettin my license right after driver's ed which i am driving right now in driver's ed... but guess what... i have to get a new permit and something about i have to have insurence now, or i have to wait a couple more months or something. thats bull shit, i am not waiting anymore. I've waited a damn year!!!!!! Man you all are glad you are not me!
later!
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| I hate people! |
[16 Apr 2002|08:19pm] |
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Rival Schools - Everything has its point |
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Well i havn't written in awhile, wanna know why? cuz im soooooooooooooooooo busy! soccer games here, newspaper there, term papers, books to read, I HATE WHEN ITS SO STRESSFUL! and my mom doesnt understand, and my dad keeps telling me how to drive, I CAN DRIVE IDIOT!!!!! and people have attitudes, and people are hypocritical and STUPID AS F*CK! they dont know what they are talking about, they complain about everything! im just so STRESSED OUT i could scream!!!!!!!
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| the will never understand! |
[11 Apr 2002|07:45pm] |
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Pillar- Fireproof |
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my parents will never understand me or anything i go through. They are so mean. they dont let me do sh*t and they think everything is MY FAULT! and richard just said "why dont we talk anymore" cuz we just sit on the phone and i dont want anything else negitive!! :'( im gonna cry
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| WE BEAT EM!! |
[10 Apr 2002|08:33pm] |
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plumb - stranded |
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all of our soccer teams beat CAMDEN!!!! :) for the first time since 1978!!! omg we are awesome! we really worked hard and deserved it! I AM SOO HAPPY and we won agianst AJ!!!!! :) :) :) :) happy happy joy joy! I LOVE YOU RICHIE!!!!!!
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| scho0L suX |
[07 Apr 2002|08:46pm] |
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Ja Rule * Down Ass B*tch |
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down ass B*tch is such a pretty song... why do they gotta call it that? dunno - but im BLAH cuz of school tomarrow. that totally sux. Im so glad that me and richie can make up so easily now-a-days! <33 i luv you babie! t0marrow i g0t a game - CAMDEN! our rival - you WILL pay for last year b*tches!!!! *p0of*
s0ccer ownz :x
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| I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF |
[07 Apr 2002|06:58pm] |
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Dashboard confessional * Screaming Infidelities |
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i am so stupid - i make my boyfriend feel bad :[ the only guy i love, the only person im living for!!! why do i do that I am SO STUPID!!! i didn't mean to~!!!!!!!! I AM SORRY RICHARD :'[ i hate myself for making you sad, i wish that i was a better girlfriend to you. i love you
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[07 Apr 2002|11:58am] |
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Linkin Park - A place for my head |
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havn't listened to Linkin Park in awhile, its one of muh fav. bands but i just havn't been in the LP mo0d. its nice hearin chester's voice - its calming. I was suppose to see richie today but - his parents said n0 so im gonna go see my g-ma. Its okay richie - i'll see u sometime so0n :] i still love you lots and lots!! I wanna change my Lj around, put like lajon from sevendust as muh BG or something - <33 well i better go!! gotta see granny! :] i love you richard :*
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